Just posting a bit of a moan as usual. I haven't had too bad a couple of days actually, as I have been off work and been able to catch up with things. Christmas is now sorted apart from the following things:
1. The buying and wrapping of one present
2. To mail off my packages of presents
3. To find my godmother's address so I can mail her card.
So all in all that's a stress off my mind.
I had my work Christmas meal yesterday afternoon and it went ok. I didn't really say anything but I did get pretty drunk and gave out a couple of cards and generally tried to join in conversations that I just can't get into. At one point, I told them I didn't go to university to get a job, but just to learn to think in a new way, and they all laughed at me. Oh well, I laugh at them too, just, secretly.
I also watched the X Factor final, in a drunken, crashed state, I was glad Joe won because Olly was a wanker. I hate those laddy types of guys, they stink of repressed sexuality.
I'm reading George Orwell's Down and Out in Paris and London and it's genius, I'm hooked. Nearly finished now and then I'm going to read something short so I can get ready for any books I may get for Christmas.
What else? I've written all my mail and want some more to come in because I get lost when I haven't got letters to do. I've always been a compulsive writer.
I'm working nights the next 3 days so I'll be around, but not around. Then two days off, then 3 days straight of days and then I'm off for 5 for Christmas. Yey!
There's probably more but I have no other thoughts. Listen to my music, clean my house, hang out with John and the cats and the usual.

• 19:38 @maddiekinslt I kno what u mean, I crawled into bed hammered at 5.50am Saturday and then had to get up to go home at 7. awful car journey! #
• 20:58 Jess makes Kate happy :):) #

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• 00:27 Has the skillz #
• 01:09 Got my phone out s4 a reason but now donkt remember it :s #
• 09:18 Goodbye goodbye Nottingham! I love you! #
• 18:57 is going out looking ridiculous in the name of christmas fancy dress. It's almost like I haven't come home XD #

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Day 18 → Whatever tickles your fancy

The Avett Brothers are my new obsession. &hearts

• 09:58 hula hoops for breakfast? Yeh, go on then ^^ #
• 11:38 how do I have more stuff than before even though I've used all the toiletries, eaten all the food and mum already took a few bits home?? #
• 11:40 hello bursary, goodbye overdraft! YAY :D #

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• 12:57 very much likes getting 7 hours sleep despite going to bed at 5.30. mmmmbed. #
• 13:18 feels guilty now. sadface. #
• 16:38 HORROR! distance is POSITIVE!! #
• 21:19 Lily lily lily lily allen :) #

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• 17:30 has actually done nothing but sleep today. Despite having 3 lectures. Oops. #
• 17:31 @maddiekinslt wow, I take it back, that IS incompetent!! #
• 17:32 @emmabarrott me too bubs, me too. not long now, hang in there! #
• 22:41 Paranormal activity. So fucking terrified right now. #

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• 15:27 3 down, 5 to go. I'm going to kick this to-do list's ass. #
• 16:19 @Chipolatas well maybe thatll teach them not to put ill people on 8 hour shifts! go to bed and recuperate missy :) #
• 18:54 @maddiekinslt I love weekend fooods! and there was cheesecake! STRAWBERRY CHEESECAKE. incompetence indeed. tsk. #

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• 10:40 Timothy Spall is fixing the shower. Scared the shit out of me. #
• 12:19 all my coursework for this term is done and I don't feel the need to nap. So now what do I do with myself? #
• 23:34 Ran to a cash point 2 avoid paying £1.50 for cash, didnt make it bac in time and had to pay £3 entry. Fail. #

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1. What is your salad dressing of choice?
Who needs a dressing, salad is yummy enough on its own!

2. What is your favourite sit-down restaurant?
It used to be Austens but it closed down with the recession. I had a good meal in Jamie Olivers restaurant reasonably recently. Maybe there.

3. What food could you eat every day for two weeks and not get sick of?
Strawberry soya milk and blueberries.

4. What are your pizza toppings of choice?
Loads of veggies and I like pineapple on there.

5.What do you like to put on your toast?
Dairy free spread, and sometimes I just eat it on its own.

***********TECHNOLOGY***************

1. How many televisions are in your house?
One.

2. What color cell phone do you have?
Silver

3. Have any idea how many Megahertz your computer has?
Like I give a fuck so long as it works.

***************BIOLOGY******************

1. Are you right-handed or left-handed?
Left.

2. Have you ever had anything removed from your body?
Adenoids and a tooth.

3. What is the last heavy item you lifted?
A box of COSHH stuff at work.

4. Have you ever been knocked unconscious?
Yes.

************BULLCRAPOLOGY**************

1. If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?
Go on then, give me something to look forward to!

2. If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
Fuckwit.

3. Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for £1000?
I'd have a go but probably couldn't.

************DUMBOLOGY******************

1. How many pairs of flip flops do you own?
Maybe one or two, I don't really wear them much and certainly not at the moment.

2. Last time you had a run-in with the cops?
We're talking years.

3. Last person you talked to?
John, I saw him on his way to work, face to face. Or a colleague, who rang me.

4. Last person you hugged?
Mookie, I needed a big snuggle when I got in. Person, John, I jumped in the car and grabbed a hug off him briefly.

**************FAVORITOLOGY****************

1. Season?
Spring, babies everywhere!

2. Holiday?
Christmas

3. Day of the week?
Whatever one I'm not in work for.

4. Month?
None of them.

***********CURRENTOLOGY*****************

1. Missing someone?
Missing lots of people.

2. Mood?
Low. Tired. Fed up.

3. What are you listening to?
The washing machine, Jeff Lewis singing 12 Crass Songs

4. Watching?
TV is off.

***************RANDOMOLOGY*****************

1. First place you went this morning?
Into the unit, as I was in the sleep in room and wanted to give my keys in so I could get out of there.

2. What's the last movie you saw?
Star Wars was on the other day, totally overrated.

3. Do you smile often?
I try my best to.

***************OTHER-OLOGY*****************

1. Do you always answer your phone?
No. Only to certain people. I always answer texts, I just have phone phobia about speaking to people.

2. Its four in the morning and you get a text message, who is it?
Laura I would have thought.

3. If you could change your eye color what would it be?
I wouldn't really want to change them but I guess blue or brown are pretty.

4. What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic?
What's Sonic? I like gin and elderflower water.

5. Do you own a digital camera?
Yes but I never use it. I'm not a photograph kind of girl. Why would I want to remember my shit life?!

6. Have you ever had a pet fish?
Yeah loads of fish. Fish are cool. Don't eat them!

7. Favorite Christmas song:
I'm not sure on this one. Christmas Song by Mogwai is good. And My First Christmas As A Woman by the Vandals makes me laugh.

8. What's on your wish list for your birthday?
The Arab Strap vinyl box set that is coming out in February.

9. Can you do push ups?
Only about 3. I have bizarre arms. From the elbow down is bigger than from the elbow up.

10. Can you do a chin up?
Only about 2.

11. Does the future make you more nervous or excited?
Nervous to the point of distraction.

12. Do you have any saved texts?
Yes. Sometimes I delete some and add some more saved ones in, so they get updated.

13. Ever been in a car wreck?
No.

14. Do you have an accent?
Yes, a posh English one with a hint of Taffy.

15. What is the last song to make you cry?
I See A Darkness by Bonnie Prince Billy makes me cry.

16.Plans tonight?
Go over Debbies, do fuck all, hang around the house. That kind of thing.

17. Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom?
Daily.

18. Name 3 things you bought yesterday?
Nothing, I didn't spend a penny. I was busy running my unit all day and didn't go out much.

19. Have you ever been given roses?
Yes, I get them pretty regularly and I put them on my bedroom window sill to make me happy.

20. Current worry?
Why am I such a useless twat?

21. Current hate right now?
Managers. Except for John, Eve and Debbie, they're all cunts.

22. Met someone who changed your life?
Plenty of people. Everyone you meet changes your life in some way. They may change it for the worse or better, but they always make you think something you might not have thought if you didn't meet them.

23. How will you bring in the New Year?
In work, sober and lonely.

24. What song represents you?
Big A Little A (Jeffy Lewis) makes me feel inspired and gives me somewhere to productively throw my angers. If you don't like the life you live, go change it now, it's yours. No song really 'represents' me though. I think that's the wrong word.

25. Name three people who might complete this?
It's nearly the weekend, so I guess the 3 people with the least social life...I wouldn't want to name names!

26. Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
Yeah, I wonder what happened, even in my lifetime. I can't remember so much of my life I'd like to watch it like a TV programme.

27. Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
Yes, several people.

28. Do you have any tattoos/piercings?
A nose piercing that I mostly forget about. No tattoos, to be honest I'm not a huge fan. They're just a bit of a trend that people who think they're arty get into. Some look pretty but I don't know if I'd ever go there myself.

30. Does anyone love you?
Well, people tell me they love me so I guess they mean it.

31. Ever had someone sing to you?
Yes, I love being sung to sleep. I sing to others too.

32. When did you last cry?
This morning and last night, stupid fucking work.

33. Do you like to cuddle?
Yes, as long as it's with the right person.

34. Have you held hands with anyone today?
No

36. Are most of the friends in your life new or old?
Newish

37. Do you like pulpy orange juice?
Yes, just not from evil concentrate.

What can I write today? I'm sleep deprived and sad. I had one hell of a shift in work yesterday and then didn't get much sleep so I'm in a mess today. Sleepy and don't want to do anything. Got so much to do but all I can do is sit around playing Jeffy and Morrissey and generally wasting yet more of my life.
As I didn't sleep I had a good read of my book. I'm enjoying it, Howard Marks is good. I find the whole drug underworld pretty confusing but I guess I never really spared a thought for what would be a good scam to get drugs into the country. Like, as Howard does, 30 tonnes of weed. The mind boggles. Everyone must be smoking it!
It's far too cold to have this poor circulation. I've been freezing for days and never seem to warm up.
John started putting our christmas decorations up when I was working last night, they look pretty but the cats think they're new toys so I keep having to rescue them all.
I've got stuff to sort out, stupid stuff, but I can't be bothered. I did dig out my vinyl player the other day and listen to my Malcolm Middleton girl songs EP and it's amazing. Maybe I'll play it while I sort out my stuff. I've got to go through it all and get rid of it. Just looking at it all reminds me of who I used to be and makes me want to cry. But I have to face up to it because John is going mad that my crap is everywhere in the house. I should have done this when I moved in. I should take up less space.

• 11:33 mmmmm, sleep :) #
• 19:49 can I just go home now, please. #

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• 15:36 so much stress and hassle for 1% of the marks for this year. #

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• 09:12 so, because it is December...it immediately looks like December should??? Cool! #
• 09:16 @Chipolatas your cloud is funny, it says damn test, finally practised. and happy whilst cold - which is a lie! lol, love it XD x #
• 09:42 shiiiiiit, it feelslike December should n'all #
• 17:14 actually I know what happens when you throw 2 dice at once, and I don't appreciate being patronised by 14 year old lecturers. #

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